hahahaha when in doubt about how you feel, hang out with little kids.
...
its better than therapy, believe me.

some days i wish i could
chew through the restraints that hold me to sanity and reality
take a trip to the state insanity, if the taxes werent so high
to have a day that was absolutely perfect.
but of course, as always, dreams stay dreams
and so i wait for my dreams to come true

yeah...

sorry about only having songs as posts.
as i hope most of u know i am not deep at all so yeah
thats why

1234

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes


No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies


But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be


I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free


No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you


No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through


But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be


I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free


When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool

When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool


If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat

If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat


No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

:)

On this earth not alone we stand
Outstretched arm and upturned hand
Never knowing when the shakes steady
And 'till now we have seldom seen
And I will go if you go with me
Understand I will wait for thee
I'll try to catch up if you move quickly
If the rain does blow

And oh sir
If you ever lose your way
You can call upon this family
You can call upon this day
And oh mam
If you ever lose your way
You can call up on this family
You can call upon this day

'Cause you're my present my future
My lesson my teacher
Oh... My world is still
You're my guard you're my guide
In my life I confide to ever shelter your will
And my words are forerver you're my blanket my shiver
Whatever you give I'll never lack

You're my chorus my refrain
The verse of my first pain
Let the voices come barrelling back

'Cause I can stand to stay right where I am
Let the water fill this hand
Bring it to your mouth
And pass beyond your lips
No gale can down this ship

And I'll stand on your shoulders
To watch us grow older
I can see us far along the road
As the trail grows deeper
your my giver my keeper
Laughter for years untold

'Cause I can stand to stay right where I am
Let the water fill this hand
Bring it to your mouth
And pass beyond your lips
No gale can down this ship

And wherever you go there you are
And if I go I won't go far
Wherever you go
There you are
And if I go I won't go far

And oh sir
If you ever lose your way
You can call upon this family
You can call upon this day

haha

haha you knwo those times where you really want to write something but you dont have a fugging (haha noah) clue what to write about?

now is one of those times

much needed break

i was realizing something the other day
outdoors is like, the best place ever.
outdoors, nothing cares what you are
who your friends are
who u might happen to like
if your mad
if your sad
if your extatic.
it doesnt care.
you can show how u feel so much easier
u can go out in the woods and sing your heart out
you can hike a mountain and cry your head off
you can be going down the slopes whacking trees with anger
it doesnt care
i have always been an outdoorsy kid
and i love it that way
climbing trees
whiffle ball bat jousting
falling out of trees
sledding
skiing
everything.
its just a much needed break from real life
and i love it

mistakes

has anyone other than me ever noticed
that if you make a mistake, someone is always there to realize it
point out
add more pain to the festering wound?
oh of course ive made my fair share of mistakes
most of them small ones, yes
but there is always someone there to make it worse for you.

like a while ago, my mom told me to take some bread out of the oven after 20 minutes.
half an hour after those 20 minutes were done, i noticed i forgot to take the bread out
i ran to kitchen and took it out.
the outside had a black charred coating on it
yeah, i got in trouble and i had to eat it myself.
it was nasty
but the point is, my mom made it worse than it already was.

so really people, if you ever notice someone made a mistake
dont be the one to make it worse for them
because they probably already feel bad enough about it already as it is

hannahs story

once upon a time

there was a magic fary

she loved her life

her friends and her home

but then an evil dragon stole her away

it flew far away

and dropped her in a sticky bog

she was very sad

to be taken away from her happy land where they all rode on fluffy bunnies

then

while she was living in the horible place of meanness

she met a horible mean evil fary

the evil mean fary tricked the magic fary into leaning out over a claff

*cliif

cliff

then she ripped of her silvery butterfly wings

and while she was doubled over in pain

punched her off

she then plummited to her death

while evil fary's minions shot her with splaty guns before she was impaled on spikes at the bottom

of the cliffs

the end

timmy and the lords of the underworld

Timmah!
Timmah oobedablah!!
YAH! Eh Timmah!
Timmah!
And the Lords of the Underworld
Timmah!
Darkness fills my heart with pain
Timmah!
And when girls start to sleep with girls
Beezelbub will rise again!
Timmah! oobedablah!
A buh buh buh!
Yeah! OH!
Timmah...
And the Lords of the Underworld!
Darkness fills my heart with pain
And when girls start to sleep with girls
Timmah livin a lie!
I pledge allegiance to the flag....
To the United States of...
Timaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
TIMMAH!
Timmah oobedablah!
Timmah!!
A ba dup dup da
And the Lords of the Underworld
Darkness fills my heart with pain
And when girls start to sleep with girls
Timmah! Timmah timmah timmaah timaaaaaaaaaaaaaah TIMMAH!

i dont even know

I never thought that you would love me the way that you do.
I never thought that you would love me half as much as I do.
You say you wanna know everything about me. Well here you go.
You say you couldn't live your life without me. I don't know.
But if you want it girl, you've got it,
it's all right here,
in my box set.

I never thought that words like "product" could ever leave my lips,
but something happened to me somewhere that made me lose my grip.
Maybe it's a lack of inspiration that makes me stoop,
or maybe it's a lack of remuneration I can't recoup.
But if you want it folks, you got it;
it's all right here in my box set.

all i want for christmas

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
(and I) Don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

Oh I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
(and I) I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

evolution

alright, so in the beginning we are all just fish, swimming in the ocean
then one day one of the fish had a retard baby so it got to live
then that retard baby had more retard babies until
one of them crawled out onto the land with its
mutant fish hands
and it had butt sex with a squirrel or something
and that made this fish squirrel
which then had butt sex with a monkey which made a monkey fish frog
and that had butt sex with that monkey which
screwed another monkey
and the baby had butt sex with that monkey
and that made you
so there you have it
youre the retarded offspring of 5 monkeys having butt sex with a fish squirrel
congratulations.

Out Loud

Would you be the wind
To blow me home?
Would you be a dream
On the wings of a poem?
And if we are walking through a crowd,
Well you know I'd be proud
If you'd call my name out loud

If you'd call my name out loud
Do you suppose that I would come running?
Do you suppose I'd come at all?
I suppose I would

And if we were walkin down a dead-end street
Would you be the one to let our eyes meet?
Or would you just keep on walking down to the turnaround?
Cause you know I'd be proud
If you'd call my name out loud

If you'd call my name out loud
Do you suppose that I would come running?
Do you supposed I'd come at all?
I suppose I would

And If I was gone
From the land we know
Would you be there, darling?
Would your beauty still show?
And if you were out walking
In the cold night coming
Would you call my name?
Cause you know I would come running
If you'd call my name out loud

If you'd call my name out loud
Do you suppose that I would come running?
Do you supposed I'd come at all?
You know I would
You know I would
You know I would
You know I would
I'd come running
I'd come running
If you'd call my name out loud

snow

you know how everyone is saying rain is the best precipiation?
well that is total bogus.
snow is deff the best kind of precipitation
rain is all heavy and dark and such
snow is lighthearted and fills the soul with joy.
how can people like it when it rains?
i sure as hell dont know
rain is just so... bad. it makes you wet.
i dont like being wet unless i want to be wet, like swimming.
i mean, snow just lifts you up makes you so much more happy than rain
seriously, go outside and roll around in 3 feet of snow.
then wait for summer and roll around in the pouring rain. which is more fun?
i rest my case
snow is way better than rain. and you all know it

who knows?

when the time comes to decide to stay or go, what will happen?
there are ups and downs for each side, goods and bads. happiness and consequences.
i know what i would do.
but i am me, and me being me, i would probably mess everything up. just like everything else i do.
but anyways, who knows what will happen. nobody knows what happens.
ever.

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alright so a lot of people have been telling me to make one of these things so i have decided to even though i will probably never use it and then wayy later in life be like "holy shit what is this?!" and then crack up at how weird i was as a kid. haha wow that was a giant run on sentence. darn you mrs fary!